Wisdom of the High Road

Everyone has that person or situation in their lives that is a thorn, causes them angst and regression in their humanness, and overall is a stressor in their world.  

We can come deeper into alignment with ourselves by taking the high road and facing those thorns in our life with integrity and heart.  

This time of being alive is rich with opportunity on so many levels.  I feel as though everything has been and continues to be magnified in our personal lives and on the global front.  There is no stone being left unturned and we have a choice in every moment if we are going to pull the covers over our heads and collapse or turn right towards the person, situation, event, conversation, gunk and meet it heart on. 

A choice if we are going to stay on the surface or dig deep and truly open up to new possibilities of healing, growing, and mending the seams of the fragmentation of our lives.

I was recently presented with the painful opportunity to take the serious high road, like climb the tallest peak ever (at least that is how it felt!), in communicating and relating to my sons dad.  Those of you who know us and our situation, have a glimpse as to the magnitude of this climb, and also the importance of doing so.

A long history that has led to this moment in time of someone, namely ME, stepping forward from my heart, not my wounds or my head, and meeting this person whom has been a tremendous source of contention for a very long time.  Something deep within me healed in order to be able to do this and, yet it was not an easy conversation to begin.  

What I have realized over the years is that my son is the one who suffers from the adults dysfunction. I am causing myself unnecessary suffering by putting energy into the pain and all of the ways in which we have been wronged.  

AND, this is not discounting the tremendous pain that has been caused by this person and the legal system, YET, it has become a choice point as to how I want to live my life.  Recognizing that in so many ways of my life and my work I am in alignment with my true Self, my higher Self, and yet in this scenario, which happens to be up close and personal, I was not operating from that place. 

I think of the Sages of our time and of the past, those whom found forgiveness in midst of horrifying conditions and the deep inner peace that they accessed as a result.

What I know for sure is that whenever we are holding onto the pain, the trauma and drama, the stresses, the angst around a person or situation, we suffer.  Our wellbeing suffers.  We become all-consumed by this negative energy and it can embed in our bodies, in our cells and our tissues, and cause a whole host of health-related issues, addictions, and overall an extreme disconnect from the goodness of this precious life.  

I dug deep into the depths of my heart and took the steps up on the high road and mended the seams of a long and painful relationship pattern.  I feel relief, I feel peace and calm in myself, I am resting better than I have in a very long time, and am trusting in the ripple effect of this healing.  I no longer feel devoured by this energy but rather liberated to drop down into myself in a very new way.  It is a leap in the right direction, that I feel in my bones.

What I am reminded of in this moment and I know the moments to come is that when we do choose to take the high road, to have the hard conversations, to stop avoiding the thorns of life, we gift ourselves with the opportunity to feel genuine peace and love.  We feel light and free in our hearts when we make this potent choice on our journey.  

When we push past the fear, we truly do open up to new possibilities of living and being.  

So, I ask you, what or who are you holding onto unnecessary tension and angst? Where in your life do you know you can use a dose of peace and forgiveness?  What step are you willing to take today towards healing a wound that is infected with negativity?  

For me, this is a moment-by-moment practice.  A choice to take a deep breath and connect to myself rather than react.  A pivot in my ways of thinking and believing.  A remembering of what is truly important separate from my ego and false belief systems.

This is not an easy path to walk.  Even as I write this post I am having sensations bubbling up in myself of anger, of validation of my own feelings of hurt and angst, and an overall sense of desperation.  Yet, I am choosing to work this.  I am choosing to carve a new pathway in my being, in my heart, in my life, and, most importantly in my sons destiny.  

I am breathing deeper after this unfolding. We are sleeping more peacefully, resting into a rhythm together, and overall feel more enlivened in life.

When we can meet each other from a place of vulnerability, miracles do happen. When we are able to drop the armor, drop the bullshit, and yield to each other with openness, softness, and integrity the possibilities for infinite wisdom and true miracles abound.